Hey all! I just felt a need to update on what's going on in my life. I'm still not doing well at reading my Bible. I need it where I can see it so that I will actually read it so now it's on my coffee table. I did read Genesis 19 today, but I don't have much to say about it except that people are twisted. It's amazing to think how far back our world became corrupt and it's only gotten worse from there!
Anyway, I'm 30 weeks pregnant now and still not to the point where I wish it would just be over. Truth is, I'm terrified of what's to come. There's no taking this back! I look forward to meeting my son, but it's everything that comes with it that terrifies me. I almost want to stop reading books about it because they just keep scaring me more. And don't tell me my mommy instincts will kick in because I know this. But it's hard to imagine right now. I mean, I've been just a woman for 25 years so to just all the sudden become a mommy is like...woah!
And yes, I felt the same way about becoming a wife. That was terrifying all in itself and I had reason to be terrified! The first 1 1/2 years of our marriage were really, REALLY hard! But now things are better and I adore my wonderful husband who had been here for me completely through this pregnancy and I can't imagine doing it without him. Even with the birthing classes, he started off mostly just scared and not wanting to participate and now you should see him. (I have a smile that I couldn't stop even if I'd wanted to). When we do our relaxation "training" at the end of the class, he is so right there for me. I think he's going to do great when I go into labor.
So my only physical complaints about being pregnant are my shin splints, though other things are just very recently starting to happen. My feet and ankles are swelling, probably with all the heat lately, and my low back just yesterday started bothering me. I'm doing my exercises recommended in our birthing class so maybe the low back has held off because of that, but I might need to do them more often if this is the case.
Also, I only have 6 weeks left of work. I'm sooo excited. It's been a great 3 1/2 years, but I'm more than ready to move on. I'm just glad I've had such a good boss. And he's finally responding to me when I talk about my pregnancy instead of pretending like he didn't hear me. It's kind of hard not to face the facts when my belly is this big. Haha.
So I think that's all for now. Gotta go get ready for another day of work!!
