Stress is a killa

I am stressed. I am utterly stressed. I am so happy I have God in my life or I wouldn't be able to take this stress. My whole spine feels like it's in a vice grip because of the tension caused by my stress. I often get easily irritated. I've been known to snap at my husband and almost at the patients at work. I am a sinner.

But God has blessed me. I am blessed to work at a chiropractor's office where I can get free adjustments and advice on what to do next. I am blessed to have a good boss who listens to my personal problems and wants to help. I am blessed to find recently that I have workout videos on Netflix so I've been able to work out as often as I need to (which has been every day for the last 3 days!). I am blessed to have past the worst in my relationship with my husband so now we get along really well and apologize quickly when we snap at each other because of the friction of our stress. (He even played a few of my favorite love songs last night when I was upset over something he did that I really shouldn't have been that upset at. It was sweet and melted my anger.) I am blessed to have a God I fully believe in and trust to talk to about my problems and know that He's taking care of it even if I don't always see productivity. He is definitely taking care of us. I wish I remembered to read my Bible more often. It's not that I don't want to or don't have time, I just remember at inopportune times.

Anyway, I'm at my breaking point, but I keep telling myself that God will not let more than I can handle happen to me. If my husband doesn't find a job soon though....I don't know if I can take this. I don't know how to fix the problem since I can't find a job for him. And it's not like he's not looking. It sounds like he's looking very hard, but nothing is coming of this as it is the holidays and I'm sure many people are looking for jobs/second jobs. I just wish this would come to an end. I'm not so prideful I can't ask for a little help with our finances, but I'm tired of asking. I think I've drained everyone who has the ability to help. And no, I'm not asking for your money. I'm just venting. God will provide.

I miss the days when we could pay all our bills on time and have extra for other needs and maybe even a few wants. That day will come again. I just hope God doesn't make me pregnant quite yet cuz you never know when that could happen, but I don't think I could handle it right now. Some day I want kids, but right now is not the time. Whew! I'm glad I got that out of my system. :) Thanks for any and all prayers. I hope you feel as blessed as me! Have a wonderful day!