Not a happy blog

I am stressed. Everyone has stress in your life, and I care about your stresses too, but today, I need to vent about me. For almost 2 months, my husband has been working really hard at his job which is fully commission and unfortunately hasn't made much money from it. So he has been looking for a new/secondary job which hasn't produced any results. I don't care much for the job market. (I don't like to use the word 'hate'.)

Well, today I hit my breaking point. Somehow it didn't come last week though I wouldn't have made rent had I not had  a really awesome boss who gave me an advance on my pay. Well, I thought I could make my bills this week, but I can't. I am very, very short on what I owe. This sucks. I am so stressed that I am in physical pain. My boss told me to exercise to relieve my stress. I did. It helped for about the 20 mins I exercised plus maybe 10 more mins and then left. I broke down in tears again. It doesn't help that my stomach keeps getting bigger (no, I don't think I'm pregnant) so I am going to exercise as often as I can so that I can relieve stress and make my stomach smaller.

My husband is going to reapply at his old job where we were making more than our bills added up to per month if he doesn't find something else by Monday. He left on good terms so it's a pretty good chance that he will get it back. I am so utterly grateful for all the help I've had from financial loans/gifts to prayers to hugs. Being moneyless is hard. I understand why it breaks marriages apart. Thankfully, we are happy otherwise. We have good times together and he really, really loves me as I do him. I'm glad this ended on a happy note. My eyes are tired though so I might go to bed early. Thank you for reading my sad sob story. I'm good now.